I hate to say it but my life would honestly be perfect if my mother would just let me have fun and relax a bit. I love who I’ve become, I may have a past I’m not proud of but if that’s what it took to make me who I am today then I have no regrets at all. No resentment towards anyone. I love everyone, I need to start making sure all of my loved ones are aware of it. Death is all around and I know more people are going to start slipping through my fingers, but I can’t let it defeat me this time. I’m going to get strong as hell before it happens. I know what’s coming this time. And I know I’m strong and independent but I hope its okay to say that I know i have people around who will be there to support me through it all. I’m just going to have to be my mom’s backbone. Its nothing new. I used to think God put me here to save lives, but now I believe he gave my mom me for the ups and downs. That may sound conceited, but no man has ever done my mother right and vise versa. I am her rock and as much as I don’t like to admit it, she’s mine. This is such a bipolar post, I go from hating her to loving her. That’s just our relationship. My whole life it’s just been her and I. Yeah, there’s been males here and there but we take care of each other. She has always done the best she can. And while I’m an ungrateful little bastard, he best was never good enough. But it happens, I no longer hold it against her. She’s provided me with the perfect example of how not to live my life. Never will I rest my life on my child’s shoulders. Its so hard sometimes, especially when our loved ones get called to the gates. Great grandma and aunt marge are dying. I don’t know how in the world I’m ever going to be able to help my mom when her grandma dies, she was her savior from her mom. And Aunt marge is a freakin saint. I’m not looking forward to this at all. Fuck. I hate death. RIP Aunt Hazel, Pap Pap, Fran, Saxon, Lee, Shy, Maggie, Donna, Fred, Nick, Ron, Alex. You all made such a great impact on my life and I know you’ll be taking awesome care of those crazy, loving bitties when they finally make their way. And also that you’ll be giving me strength to keep myself sane down here. Life is so beautiful here on Earth, I can’t even imagine heaven. Every aspect is just so gorgeous to me, which is what gets me into trouble. I want to make everyone else see the world through my eyes and it never works out. I guess everyone just needs to develop their own optimistic contact lenses in their brains. I don’t even know what I’m saying. But, this is the most beautiful piano piece I’ve ever heard and its playing right now, it’s titled “Where is My Mind” by Maxence Cyrin. How fitting. If anyone ever actually reads this post, I highly suggest you listen to it, it’s amazing. One day I’ll be able to play that and make someone as happy as I am. Well, I cannot say that I will be going to bed because there is no way I am going to be able to sleep whenever I’m in this state of mind, but I’m going to draw this to a close. Until tomorrow, au revoir.
First off, screw you fuckers who screwed me over. We’ll go one by one so I can get that off my chest, and then every single one of you is history :) Oh, and sorry tumblrdiary, my internetz wuz offf.
Scialabbooob ha (kinda) just didn’t think we’d be where we are right now, don’t really understand why you think we’re gonna be hooking up and whatnot. thats pretty gay:p im not a whore sorrrry.
EB hahah you’re legitimately the biggest douchebag ever. you think youre hot shit, but nobody actually likes you.. lol jokes on you because everyone thinks youre a cocky dbag. and you apparently know nothing about girls. so im just gonna laugh and let whoever wants to talk shit on me talk shit. say im a slut because i made out with you and grinded on you while we were drunk as hell. you know all of the fucked up shit you said that night and so do i, im just not a douche bag enough to put you on blast like you did to me. im better than that. deuces doucheeee
Nicholas HAHA fuck you especially. i guess it was my turn to break your heart, even though i was just being honest and not playing you. I grew up. Sorry?
Oh..wait? Are you relevant at all anymore? Haa nope. I needed this weekend so badly. It feels good to feel wanted for once.
Wild-Bleu’s HUGE SUMMER GIVEAWAY!
My last giveaway for spring was maybe my most fun yet, and here’s my final giveaway of 2012! Yeah, those are literally all of my summer clothes from 2011. My entire summer closet, all of it, goes to one lucky winner.
Prizes:
-17 chiffon tank tops from Acne
-7 pairs of lightwash jeans from Rag&Bone
-13 bags
-8 blazers
-26 pairs of shorts from Rag&Bone
-3 pairs of shorts from American Apparel
-10 pairs of shorts from Urban Outfitters
-34 summer dresses
-9 loose long-sleeve tops
-2 pairs of summer shoes
-and MUCH MORE!
Rules:
-you must follow wild-bleu, if you don’t want to follow please don’t waste your time, you won’t be chosen
-no likes! they will not be counted
-reblog at least once, but no more than 10 times (i’m using a random selector, i want to keep it relatively fair)
-i ship international
-winner will be chosen on june 25th
-i will personally message the winner on tumblr, if i get no response in 48 hours i will choose another winner
What are you waiting for? This is honestly the chance of a lifetime. REBLOG!
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Wild-Bleu’s HUGE SUMMER GIVEAWAY!
My last giveaway for spring was maybe my most fun yet, and here’s my final giveaway of 2012! Yeah, those are literally all of my summer clothes from 2011. My entire summer closet, all of it, goes to one lucky winner.
Prizes:
-17 chiffon tank tops from Acne
-7 pairs of lightwash jeans from Rag&Bone
-13 bags
-8 blazers
-26 pairs of shorts from Rag&Bone
-3 pairs of shorts from American Apparel
-10 pairs of shorts from Urban Outfitters
-34 summer dresses
-9 loose long-sleeve tops
-2 pairs of summer shoes
-and MUCH MORE!
Rules:
-you must follow wild-bleu, if you don’t want to follow please don’t waste your time, you won’t be chosen
-no likes! they will not be counted
-reblog at least once, but no more than 10 times (i’m using a random selector, i want to keep it relatively fair)
-i ship international
-winner will be chosen on june 25th
-i will personally message the winner on tumblr, if i get no response in 48 hours i will choose another winner
What are you waiting for? This is honestly the chance of a lifetime. REBLOG!
(via anchorsaw3igh)
Wild-Bleu’s HUGE SUMMER GIVEAWAY!
My last giveaway for spring was maybe my most fun yet, and here’s my final giveaway of 2012! Yeah, those are literally all of my summer clothes from 2011. My entire summer closet, all of it, goes to one lucky winner.
Prizes:
-17 chiffon tank tops from Acne
-7 pairs of lightwash jeans from Rag&Bone
-13 bags
-8 blazers
-26 pairs of shorts from Rag&Bone
-3 pairs of shorts from American Apparel
-10 pairs of shorts from Urban Outfitters
-34 summer dresses
-9 loose long-sleeve tops
-2 pairs of summer shoes
-and MUCH MORE!
Rules:
-you must follow wild-bleu, if you don’t want to follow please don’t waste your time, you won’t be chosen
-no likes! they will not be counted
-reblog at least once, but no more than 10 times (i’m using a random selector, i want to keep it relatively fair)
-i ship international
-winner will be chosen on june 25th
-i will personally message the winner on tumblr, if i get no response in 48 hours i will choose another winner
What are you waiting for? This is honestly the chance of a lifetime. REBLOG!
(via anchorsaw3igh)
Wild-Bleu’s HUGE SUMMER GIVEAWAY!
My last giveaway for spring was maybe my most fun yet, and here’s my final giveaway of 2012! Yeah, those are literally all of my summer clothes from 2011. My entire summer closet, all of it, goes to one lucky winner.
Prizes:
-17 chiffon tank tops from Acne
-7 pairs of lightwash jeans from Rag&Bone
-13 bags
-8 blazers
-26 pairs of shorts from Rag&Bone
-3 pairs of shorts from American Apparel
-10 pairs of shorts from Urban Outfitters
-34 summer dresses
-9 loose long-sleeve tops
-2 pairs of summer shoes
-and MUCH MORE!
Rules:
-you must follow wild-bleu, if you don’t want to follow please don’t waste your time, you won’t be chosen
-no likes! they will not be counted
-reblog at least once, but no more than 10 times (i’m using a random selector, i want to keep it relatively fair)
-i ship international
-winner will be chosen on june 25th
-i will personally message the winner on tumblr, if i get no response in 48 hours i will choose another winner
What are you waiting for? This is honestly the chance of a lifetime. REBLOG!
(via anchorsaw3igh)
